Title: The Places I’ve Cried In Public
Author: Holly Bourne
Published: October 3rd
Genre: YA Contemporary
Amelie loved Reese. And she thought he loved her. But she’s starting to realise love isn’t supposed to hurt like this. So now she’s retracing their story and untangling what happened by revisiting all the places he made her cry.
Because if she works out what went wrong, perhaps she can finally learn to get over him.
My Rating: ★★★★★
Disclaimer: I bought this myself, all opinions are my own.
MY HEART HOLLY, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE😭😭
The Places I’ve Cried In Public has to be the most heartbreaking read by Holly Bourne that I’ve read so far, and the only two books of hers I haven’t gotten around to yet is Soulmates, How Do You Like Me Now and The Manifesto On How To Be Interesting. This book is incredibly important, powerful and a must read. I’d be dying to read this for so long and when this beautiful edition was released in Waterstones early I scrambled to get a copy! I must admit I’m not entirely sure how this review will go, I want to do it justice and I don’t think I’ll ever convey that across as much as I want to!
Trigger Warnings: Abusive Relationship
I didn’t know that a book like this could massively piss me off throughout most of the book, I despised Reese so much (honestly even more than Umbridge, I didn’t know it was possible!), he was an incredibly well written character though, charming and handsome the reason why our main character Amelie falls for him and doesn’t realise how much of a piece of shit he is.
Amelie spends this book going over her past, the places she cried in public because of Reese, going back and realising she missed all the warning signs and the friendly advice of being with Reese. Being with Reese was an abusive relationship, but because he never hit her she didn’t know that this was abuse. Amelie is trying to figure out what happened and what went wrong in her relationship with Reese when she ends up memory mapping public places she cried since meeting him, from the day that they met until weeks after their relationship ended.
I absolutely adore Amelie’s character, I felt so bad for her and I just wished I could reach into the book and comfort her myself throughout her story of abuse, trauma, losing friendships, therapy, I wanted to tell her that this was not love, relationships aren’t supposed to be like this, my heart constantly broke for her, I was constantly on the verge of tears but most of all I was angry, so angry throughout the entire book.
Amelie was an incredibly strong character, I love that she did a memory map to help her get through the hard moments she was going through, going to therapy and realising Reese was not a healthy relationship, he was bad news, manipulative and that she should’ve listened to her gut feelings from the start.
The ending of this book was perfect, it wrapped up so nicely and my heart ended up happy, that Amelie was away from the bad experiences and back home with her friends. It took me a few days to read this one, I so wanted to devour it but because it made me so angry I had to put it down at times just to calm myself down. Holly Bourne is the queen of contemporary, she writes such hard hitting but incredible books, I’ve loved all of her books (that I’ve read) so far and she is just my absolute favourite I don’t think her books will ever disappoint me!
I definitely recommend this, it’s a hard hitting book so I recommend reading some of Holly’s other books first if you haven’t yet as they’re a lot different, I now desperately want to reread her books!!